making the imperfection perfect..

do you know why almost all of my pics, i smile sheepishly? i never smile with an open mouth.. i don't favor that kind of smile on me, even though i like seeing people smile or actually grin flashing their teeth.. it seems honest n lively.. 

it's because of this..

i have a tooth gap.. ;)

i know, it's nothing.. but i always wanted a perfect teeth like hilary duff, or ziana zain, maybe.. i'm kinda frustrated a bit, in my adolescence years, having this teeth, i was so ashamed to speak in front of people, or meet people personally.. but, the feeling soon be gone, when i realized that your look doesn't influence your relationship, but self esteem does.. as long as i have my self esteem with me, i'm fine.. 

so now, i'm loving my tooth gap even more.. 

why?

because my late father had had this tooth gap, an even wider gap than this.. so this is inherited from him.. so whenever i feel lost, or lonely, or miss him, i'll watch myself in the mirror.. i can see him, in my reflection.. a resemblance of him in me.. i know i'm not alone anymore..

so this tooth gap, is something i would cherish for the rest of my life, not to be hated anymore.. i know this imperfections means something, a gift from my father for me.. 

* why does this post sounds so emotional? this is like a confession or something like that.. my apology.. hewhew..